MY PAST MADE ME A BETTER PERSON

Hey all,

It’s been a while since I have had time to write. Well life has been good I must say. I started my new job at Avatar and I love every minute being there. Must say this year has gone by so fast, to think just yesterday it was January and now we are about to enter June. Compared to my previous year this year has been the best so far.

 My partner and I have been working a lot on our relationship. I realized that relationships come with a lot of luggage but it’s up to the both of you to how you decide to deal with it. After a long time of contemplating I decided to come clean with to my partner about my past. It wasn’t easy. It literally took me 5 months to have the courage to tell him. I have the fear that he would leave but what is the point of being in a relationship if you won’t be honest with each other.

So there I was talking and pouring my heart out to him about all that has happened and I never realized how much my past hurt me so much till I eventually told him. Yes I cried, I was hurt but I can finally say I’m ready for the next chapter of what life brings to me.

They say you will never know how strong you are if you are not willing to take the challenge and test yourself. I took my leap of faith and changed careers and changed my thinking of life. It was not hard but the most important factor is I am happy.

Peace and love to you all.

Boss Lady signing off! 

TEMPTATIONS

So lent is nearly over and this week during church there was a script that caught me. After reading certain scripture it made me realise how the devil comes and tempts us into things we know are wrong. During my time in lent I won’t lie I have been tempted but there were times were I have given in and ate and there were times were I kept my faith and didn’t give in.

One of the key points if you want to defeat the devil is to always bring God into picture. By doing that you are showing him that no matter or how the temptations there are your lord has you and will never forsake you. If you ask for forgiveness it shall be done because God loves us all.

As humans we tend to want to run our own lives and let God sit in the passenger seat while you drive the car to your life yet we forget that if you want to succeed in life let God take control of your life, let God be the driver of your life for he knows the roads and will light them up before you see any darkness. Your can have a new life if you give Christ that chance. God is always testing us, always tell yourself that away with the spirit of fear and doubt.

If you tell yourself that you wont succeed you have already predicted your tomorrow and that is how it shall be. tell yourself I SHALL SUCCEED and that will happen. What you say out of your mouth is what you will be.

Trust in the lord with all your heart. Never rely on what you think you know. Remember the lord in everything you do, and he will show you the right way. Proverbs 3 5-6

"honour the lord by making him an offering from the best of all your land procedures."

The lord corrects those he loves, as parents would correct a child of whom they are proud of.

Luke chapter 4; Jesus Is Tested in the Wilderness

Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, left the Jordan and was led by the Spirit into the wilderness, ² where for forty days he was tempted by the devil. He ate nothing during those days, and at the end of them he was hungry.

³ The devil said to him, “If you are the Son of God, tell this stone to become bread.”

⁴ Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone.”

⁵ The devil led him up to a high place and showed him in an instant all the kingdoms of the world. ⁶ And he said to him, “I will give you all their authority and splendour; it has been given to me, and I can give it to anyone I want to. ⁷ If you worship me, it will all be yours.”

⁸ Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Worship the Lord your God and serve him only.^]”

⁹ The devil led him to Jerusalem and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. “If you are the Son of God,” he said, “throw yourself down from here. ¹⁰ For it is written:

“‘He will command his angels concerning you
to guard you carefully;
¹¹ they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.”

¹² Jesus answered, “It is said: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.”

¹³ When the devil had finished all this tempting, he left him until an opportune time.

 

AFTER ALL IS SAID AND DONE

I must say this song has caught my heart and speaks the language of true love.


After All Is Said And Done"
(Beyonce feat. Marc Nelson)


[Beyonce]
Here I am
Looking in the mirror
An open face, the pain erased
Now the sky is clearer
I can see the sun
Now that all is, all is said and done, oh

[Marc]
There you are
Always strong when I need you
You let me give
And now I live, fearless and protected
With the one I will love
After all is, all is said and done

[Beyonce (Marc)]
I once believed that hearts were made to bleed
(Inside I once believed that hearts were made to bleed, oh baby)
But now I'm not afraid to say

[Beyonce & Marc]
I need you, I need you so stay with me

[Beyonce (Marc)]
These precious (precious) hours (yeah)
Greet each dawn in open arms
And dream, into tomorrow

[Beyonce & Marc]
Where there's only love
After all is, all is said and done

[Beyonce (Marc)]
(Yeah baby) Oh baby
(Inside I once believed, that hearts were meant to bleed)

[Beyonce & Marc (Marc)]
(I'll never)
I'll never be afraid to say
I need you, I need you, so here

[Beyonce]
So here we are in the still of this moment
Fear is gone, hope lives on

[Beyonce & Marc (Beyonce)]
We found our happy ending
For there's only love (only love)
And this sweet, sweet love
After all is, all is said and done

[Marc (Beyonce)]
Yeah baby after all is (all is)

[Marc & Beyonce]
All is said and don

GOODBYE MEDIA WORLD

Good morning guys,
Just yesterday I was celebrating being Copy Editor but today my life has taken me up another level. After serving 6 years in the media world as journalist and copy editor it has come to a stand still. I have left that world and being offered a new position at another company.
Its very exciting and I must say I am looking forward to it. God has a way of showing up and giving you blessing you never thought.
My journey starts on the 18 march and its so exciting. Heading up the Communication world and all that comes with it.
I cant say much right now but as I start I will keep you posted.

Signing off;

Boss Lady

MY JOURNEY THROUGH LOVE

Hey Guys,

I know I have not been around. I have been running low trying to get some work done, life drill you know. But it's been good, I must say I have been very lazy to do anything but on the other hand what else can I do. On my love life side I must say I have been having a time of my life with my Sithole. He has been nothing but amazing and I guess that is why  I have been in hiding.

Now my partner and I are ages apart but somehow our lives are able to come together to be one. To think when I met him I was nowhere near to liking him lol lol . I have grown to love and understand him and he has grown to loosen up and ad live a little.

When I met him  I wasn't planning to fall in love. I wasn't even looking for a new best friend. He came and changed  all that. The attraction was electric and unexpected. He came into my world and turned it upside down. Our timing was lousy, but the connection was impossible to ignore. Our logical minds attempted to take control, but never had a chance.

I trust you and you always told me that you "trust me, and more!". You are the first person that showed the 'real' me to, and you appreciate me for me. In the short time we are together, you found out more about me than I had ever let anyone else know. We share and so much, yet there was still so much to learn. I knew so much about you, and then again, so little.
I love your smile, I love your eyes, but most of all I fell in love with the person inside all of that. You make me laugh. You make me laugh a lot! You totally cracked me up. You also make me cry, and I hate that. Most of all, you make me feel alive. You are "the one". I love you.  

I walk into work sometimes very tired but with a smile on my face because I know I spend my evenings laughing with the one I love. A lot happens in such a short time but for now I am very  happy and wherever our road takes him and I, I'm ready for it every step of the way.

So God.....If he is the one please help me and keep us safe. I know there is no such thing as having a perfect man but to me because he has his flaws he is everyway perfect and completes my universe.

Stop waiting for your prince charming ladies, get up and go find him and don't go to someone who you know will only complete you half and not the whole of you.

Anyhow this is me in love talking .....

signing off;

BOSS LADY

GODMOTHER

I am officially a Godmother. congratulations to my beste ntosh and her man on their new born Mohau. he is very big but most important a blessing from God.

kodak moment

good times with my man and daughter

lent.

Hi Guys
Happy lent. South Africa has been making headlines lately. First with the rape and now Oscar Pistorius killing his girlfriend on Valentines day.
I don't have much to comment on the issues. Firstly no man has the right to rape. That is bull for someone to think women enjoy being penetrated without their concerns.
By me wearing my mini skirt I am not calling rape for myself. I am suppose to be living in a country where I am free to voice my opinions and be who ever but women are living in fear because men are finding it hard to keep their penises away.
I hope the world can move and learn from this pain that people are going through. Next is Oscar I have no words because the only people who were there were Reeve and Oscar so who am I to judge? Who are we to point fingers and say things happened yet we were not all there. I hope justice is done in the correct way and people find peace and comfort.
Its the time for Lent where we fast and pray for 40days. I have started my journey and It was hard at first but heck I am proud of myself. Only my God knows what I am giving up. So guys things are happening around us and we don't stop and observe. Its time to stop pointing and start praying. May we all find peace and forgiveness during this time. Prayer changes guys. Trust your lord and he will show you miracles.

LOVE HAS FOUND ME!

We took this picture of our hands to remind us that when things get tough we just need to hold onto each other. 

Last year I asked myself if I was ready for love? I can finally say yes I am!

I have meet the most amazing man who has showed me that love does finally to around. I feel like a little girl who experiencing her first crush. He's a man born and raised in PMB. When I wake up every morning I smile and thank god for blessing my life with so much love and happiness.

First thing I remember asking him was are you married? To my reply he said NO! (happy dance)

when I asked why he explained to me which was very comforting to meet someone who has no luggage that I can say he's mine and not have to worry about another women being all psycho ( lol )  

It's not every day where you find romantic notes telling you how much your an amazing women. I look forward to my tomorrows because he's always talking about ours. I'm learning to enjoy every day as it comes, open my heart and speak my emotions.

We find ourselves talking everyday till the early hours of the morning and not realising the time. He appreciates me and my bluntness, never did I think a man would like me for me being so honest.

As a single mom it is very hard to get into a relationship because although you want to love the first person you think about is your child.

I was honest with him from day 1 what I wanted and that I have a child. I was not going to wait three months into the relationship to ask him what he wanted I needed to know there and then. I'm pleased to say we are both on the same page for our tomorrows. He's not perfect but neither am I. We fight like any couple but we make up and have a friendship that can handle any hurdle.

He loves Ntokozo. At first I found it weird whenever he called he would want to speak to her. But I guess one man's trash is another man's treasure.  

He is a loving father because he has a  daughter of his own.  

Well that is a great start to me 2013 It looks like this year things are looking great!

stay blessed guys! 

good morning guys!

Hi Guys,
Can I get an amen January is finally over!!!! As we all adjust back to the likes of life I do hope everyone has been living up to their goals of 2013. I have been trying *hides* lol .
Must say I have been living each day as it come. although there has been some hiccups but guess what ? I'm still alive!
I recently came across a comment on my blog from someone who showed me that there are people who take time to read other peoples blogs. Must say it truly gave me hope as a journalist that technology has not really won this race because we as human have depended so much on technology that we forget to look up and find friends and communicate with people across the globe.
Back to what has been happening to me , I'm pleased to say that my daughter has been potty trained and no more nappies. it felt like a proud moment for me. like really she is growing up. Her dad has been granted access to see her now by my family which im pleased because there is some sort of respect between us now and i feel happy that i don't have to stress everyday about my daughter.
on my love life that all i have to say is wait and see there will be something soon to shock you bloggers ( laughs)


have a great day!

GIVING THANX

Morning guys!
So first week of the new year was not that bad. It's been busy but it's been fun. There is a saying that says better the snake you know than the one you don't know....lol funny I know but this week I ran into some deep shit , can't really go into it but with knowing someone for so many years I decided to ask help from Ntokozo's father. With all our ups and downs we have had I must say I was so shocked with how he pulled through for me. There was even a point where I yelled at him but he still stuck it out.
We have had our differences but I want to thank him for all the help and support. Spending December together I think has made our parental relationship much better.
Some days ago my parents sat me down and told me it was time to let Ntokozo's dad back to be a father to our child.  Two years is a long time to hold anger and now my daughter has her dad back and I'm grateful to god for that blessing, because of him I can look forward to a new year.
Thank you baba Shongwe

2012 holidays

HAPPY NEW YEAR

happy New Year everyone! Yep, we made it to 2013....
 I just returned to work and it feels like I've been gone only for a day. New Year and new goals. I hope everyone's holidays were fantastic. I must say these holidays for me were the best looking back on all the years. I decided to spend it with m family and making each day count. Most days were spent on drinking lol. My family and I were having the time of our lives. I was never a big fan of wine but my dad has introduced me to it and I must say one I really enjoyed it. There was some family hiccups but that's family, we fight and we make up and we love each other more. I decided to go out and have fun with no regrets and I DID! As the saying goes what happens on holiday stays on holiday. but I will give you a sneak at what happened. My holiday started with the girls and I going to Gold Reef city taking to Vilakazi Str in Soweto and having a ball. Then I did some travelling got to see my home town. Ntokozo got to see her dad's side of the family which was nice. And the rest is history........lol Like everyone else I don't know what the year ahead has in store for us but I do plan on making the most of it. I have given up smoking (victory dance) and decided to go back to church full force. This does not mean Zee will change it just means there will be some adjustments to my life. It won't be easy but YES I CAN DO IT! So this is the year were I'm hanging up my single status and trying this thing called relationship. lol lol Other goals are between my God and but watch the space and you will see. Deleted all those who didn't matter to me in 2012 so I thought why would they matter this year???? Anyhow have a great year guys. All the best and have fun!

Signing off: Boss Lady